Writings From the Fever Zone
11 Dec 2009 5 Comments
in Prose and Inspiration, Vivi Cakes!
To My Daughter,
Tonight you rapidly developed a fever. Sadness creeps over me now as I hear your silent slumber be threatened with moans and whimpers. That’s how mommy and daddy can always tell you’re not feeling well. I’m sorry, baby. We’ll do nothing short than the very best for you. Caring for you is never a burden. Trusting God and His will for you comes with growing pains, but it’s the best pain to have and trusting him will never fail us.
Tonight I’ve had the honor of laying you on my chest and rocking you while you slept. You’re so much bigger than this time last year. So. Much. Bigger. Not quite sure what’s causing you discomfort, but I rejoice in the strength in your body and pray for the purpose of the fever in successfully battling a nasty bug. I thank God that you are wonderfully made.
I love you!
Mommy
Here’s a poem I wrote you while we held each other.
When I Count My Blessings
If I kissed your fragrant hair at the top of your head once, then I kissed it a hundred times I suppose.
I would count each kiss a blessing.
When I held your small feet and wondered how many steps you had taken today, I’d guess five hundred.
I would count each step a blessing.
When your warm hands lay against my arm, I remembered watching you clap today. How many claps? Several dozen.
I would count each clap a blessing.
While I cradled your body and listened to your rhythmic breaths, I heard one after another after another.
I would count each breath a blessing.
I prayed for hours of deep and much needed rest for you. So far, there have been five.
I would count each hour a blessing.
Your blankets and sheets, socks and pajamas that keep you cozy and warm, how many? Ten of each at least.
I would count each one a blessing.
If your smiles were infectious and your laughter contagious and your silliness put twenty laugh lines to wrinkle my face.
I would count each wrinkle a blessing.
I would start counting your fingers and all of your toes, I’d count both ears, both eyes, and your nose. Each one would be a blessing.
I’d count legs and arms and all of your teeth, as well as all the bones that lay beneath. Each one would be a blessing.
Counting your hairs would sure add up, but still couldn’t come close enough. Yet, each one would be a blessing.
Because counting the blessings I have due to you aren’t countable, measurable, fathomable, or explainable.
And I count that a blessing.
(Another mommy poem by Julie Kent)
Miracles, News Reporters, Writing Letters & Reinforced Faith
28 Aug 2009 1 Comment
I hardly watch the news. It’s not worth my time. What gets repeat play these days is junk; swung so hard to the extreme right or left that it’s garbage for those who appreciate honest reporting. If I do tune-in or check out local news online, it usually ends in me wanting to fire off a letter to the reporter and station and give them down the road for their obvious bias and poor journalism tactics. It’s hard to find “fair and balanced” coverage. Far from the spotlights and front pages are stories of hope and goodness — the things that make citizens of this country, and all of humanity for that matter, thrive and yearn for more inspiration.
But then there are news reports like what WLEX and WKYT brought this week that do just what their viewers need. Broadcasted from the streets and communities nearby where I grew up was a story with so much heart, so much faith, and so much goodness that I finally decided that writing a letter to the respective reporters of each piece is not only worth my time, it’s a privilege!
It is also of a personal matter that I write as well. You see, the news coverage of the miraculous birth of a tiny baby girl is the newborn daughter of a friend I spent most all my adolescent years knowing — from elementary to high school. He and his wife were diagnosed with an extremely rare pregnancy and advised to terminate. They concluded that they would not be terminating and would be putting all their trust and faith in God to see them through. If you’ve watched the links from above, you know where it went from there! Forecasted hardship and death, a pregnancy shortened all too quickly against the background of unknown circumstances, and then the reality of a tiny baby, born only to live moments before certain death was determined, then laid in her father’s arms.
Oh, … oh, but God! But God determined certain LIFE for her nearly three hours after doctors pronounced death over this child. Faint squeals and stirring became reality, life and crying bellowed forth! A stunned doctor witnessed a baby with obvious signs of life from this babe cradled in the warmth of her father’s arms, probably began checking vital signs, hearing heartbeats, gazing at respirations, and hearing gentle cries. She, indeed, was alive! Her trip to Heaven made brief, her stay on Earth made more permanent!
I hope you’ll continue with me in praying for Baby Campbell and for her parents, Nelson and Abby!
Thanks!
Dear Mr. Kennedy and Ms. Pflum and Respective News Stations,
I want to commend yours, WLEX’s, and WKYT’s coverage of Baby Campbell that was aired yesterday and is now available on your station’s website. I grew up with Nelson from elementary school and on, graduating in ’97 together. I think you did a wonderful job allowing his true heart for his daughter’s story to come through. He is a humble man, a servant to this country, and now leading his family through a difficult, yet joyous time.
As reporters, you certainly must have felt privileged to cover this miraculous happening! At least, I hope you did! I can’t thank you enough for allowing others to hear of this journey and partner with them in support, thoughts, and most importantly prayer! Though the road ahead for Baby Campbell is uncharted and long, her story still has to be better media than what the political propaganda, scandalous affairs, over-hyped sports news (yes, even for KY), and the sagging economy has to offer.
There is a search for goodness, truth, and light in this world and most media outlets are all but driven away from reporting anything of the sorts. Alas, it exists and there is a bright hope for our world and I believe Campbell is a messenger of this light! When pure stories such as Campbell’s are sped through the hearts of humanity, this light at least has a chance to be revealed. Thank you for assisting her and her family in their instrumental task of being vehicles of hope!
Whether you were just doing your job or you had personal interest in this assignment, I have to say “job well done!” Please let everyone who helped with this story know that as well! Your producers, camera operators, anchors, news coordinators — everyone! It’s quite evident by the number of plays and comments these pieces have received, especially in comparison to breaking news stories in your area, that this tiny baby’s survival and beginning hours in life holds a powerful presence and curiosity to the hearts and minds of your viewers. To those that love the Anglin family and are being introduced to Baby Campbell, it doesn’t matter at all who first brought the story or who was last, it just matters that it was done to start with! It would be great to have follow-up coverage, too!
May you personally reap the benefits and blessings, in mind and spirit, for advancing this Miracle Child’s story!
Sincerely,
Julie
My “Best” List
20 Aug 2009 3 Comments
in Adoption, Prose and Inspiration, Vivi Cakes!
I hope my niece doesn’t someday regret her allowing me to publish this short story on my blog. She should be so proud, I know I am!
Last year, when “N” started the 4th grade, she had a writing assignment and was asked to list some of her “best” moments in life. Here is the result of her completed task, with my additions in brackets and italics [ ].
Natbug, I love you SO much! You’re more than a niece to me, you’re a jewel in my treasure box! -Aunt Juju
08-19-08
My “Best” List
1. One of the good times that I’ve had before was when I learned how to ride on 2 wheels.
2. My aunt Julie (my dad’s sister) adopted a baby before it was born [meaning we were selected to be parents before our child's birth], and on August 10th (I think) it was her birthday. Her name was Vivian. (We call her Vivi.)
[These were the two events she considered her "best" life moments. Natalie chose to expand upon and complete her writing assignment on Vivian's birth, adoption, and entry into our family. For a 9 year-old, I think that's quite remarkable, because as far as I can remember, learning to bicycle on two wheels is HUGE!]
08-27-08
I have a brand new, B-E-A-UTIFUL 1st cousin! Her name is Vivian Elizabeth Kent. Vivian had been adopted before she was even born. [Again, meaning we were selected by her birthmother to be her parents before our child's birth.] Her birthday was August the 10th (I think), 2008. She was born at the Northside Hospital in Atlanta, Georgia. [She was born at the Northside Hospital in Forsyth County. The hospital had just opened a new building, a Women's Center, only days before Vivian's birth. We literally got to "break in" the hospital. Vivian was the ninth baby born, the second girl, and the first adoption!] We call her Vivi for short. The birthmother, Micayla, asked Julie and Eric, (my aunt and uncle, of course), to be her child’s mother and father when she was at least 7 months. [That statement means that Vivian's birthmother was approximately 7 months pregnant at the time we were chosen to be her baby's parents.] Julie and my Nana (my Aunt Julie’s mother) were crying tears of wonderful JOY! Aunt Julie and Uncle Eric always wanted a child. Vivi weighs only 6 pounds, 1 pound less than what I weighed. She has like a whole head full of black, oily hair! She’s one of the most smallest babies I’ve ever seen!!! Finally I have a 1st cousin! I HE♥RT my new, sweeter’n a lollipop, brand new very 1st cousin!! Very, very, very much!!!
Now, I ask you … have you ever read something with so much enthusiasm and pure, genuine love? I am one very blessed aunt, true?

Two Sweeter'n Lollipop Girls!
A Work So Fine
15 Jul 2009 5 Comments
in Adoption, Prose and Inspiration
A Work So Fine
I can’t claim any biological contribution to how irresistible your chubby thumbs and delicate, sweet ears are. Had I drawn them myself, I wouldn’t have done you justice.
Your heart didn’t beat ‘neath mine, but I remember hearing it for the first time. Then, my heart beat in a rhythm chasing alongside yours. Drumming and swooshing. Exhilarating!
It wasn’t my body we shared as a dwelling for both our souls, but it is now my arms that merrily outstretch to sweep you out of your bed and bounce and sway you on my hips.
The blend of blues and browns in your eyes, and Oh!, their frames of thick, wispy lashes! No, not a mirror to mine, but I see myself reflecting in them and that’s where we dance.
Your voice and it’s melody as it pitches about in giggles, cries, and busy chatter is Heaven’s tune; it falls on our ears as a song divine.
That radiant smile stretched across your face–could it be any wider?–with the seven itty-bitty teeth peaking out gets us every time. It is like a grand parade of marching bands, fireworks, and sirens all in our honor.
Your fascination with a book is quite a delight for me, too. It’s those moments where we can dream and imagine, even if it is just a book of alphabet animals or old nursery rhymes. We do it together!
A constant explorer! The room, the floor, the faces, the places … where will we find you next? Tickling piano keys, unfolding clean laundry, thumping the window sill, or roaming at our feet?
What is certain about the you I’m learning is quite remarkable to say the least! While many a tender heart has been moved to love you greatly, there’s no greater love for you than that of God’s above.
It was you he chose, knitted, and formed with all your features so subtle! Such significant purpose and a need for you to be you … a praise-offering child of His design.
Determined when time began, born of loving sacrifice, and welcomed in our earnest prayer, you, Daughter, are a work so fine.
A Written Work by Julie Kent
Dedicated to our daughter, Vivian. We praise God for the masterful work he has planned for you!
Friends! I’ve been working on this piece for quite some time. It just took a new direction recently and I’m so glad to finally have it to share. The days ahead and the countdown to our first child’s FIRST birthday is really a neat journey. I’m fully enjoying it and we are actually set to celebrate and ring this new milestone in! God was just showing off when he made her. He likes to do that, you know?!
Have a fulfilled day!
He Hears, Do I?
09 Apr 2009 Leave a Comment
(This is just a personal post. For those of you reading for David updates, I’ve not abandoned you, I just haven’t heard anything in the last 24 hours.)
The past few weeks have been busy/scary/tiring/uncertain/hopeful and full of reminders of God’s sovereignty and his power to heal and protect, as well as promptings that he is in a deep pursuit for ALL of me … for ALL of you … and the pursuit after my heart is in ALL times.
Giving into the chase for the ALL of me is relatively easy, if even effortless, during the happy seasons where “all is well”. However, its the vulnerability of my surrendering a tender, bruised, and aching heart during painful, rejection-filled darkness, which often curbs short the time of mountain top highs, that takes the real effort and exercising of my faith. Its easy to scurry and hide, only announcing my faith and not acting in faith, when the testing through trial is upon me. I place limits on God and his steadfast faithfulness to see me through, forgetting how he is always equipping me for the journey. I rely on self, or worse, on others. As if the Creator and owner of all things and his brilliant omnipotence is inferior to my extremely limited, feeble, and pathetic sole abilities! Oh Julie, at least you are aware!
So, our small group has started a James Source Study and it’s a great reminder as to why James has always been one of my favorite books of the Bible. If you don’t know, James was written as a letter to Jewish Christians that were being persecuted in their scattered regions of the Mediterranean outside their Gentile communities. They were living in the midst of hostility towards their faith and were faced with the temptation to allow intellectual agreement, read as spiritual know-how, to take the place of active and true faith. Much of James’ letter was written as a guide to Christian living and it began with a challenge to see hardship as opportunity. Okay, so a guide to being a Christian, great stuff! But choosing to count hardship as opportunity to show your faith, all the while considering it joyful testing nonetheless, just screams oxymoron, right?! James appealed to his brethren that it was all about an attitude–a decision–to be joyful. Not mistaking joy for a temporary happy emotion, but a deeply routed joy that takes that opportunity–that testing fire–and refuses to sit still, but rather to GROW! In my translation of James 1:2, it says “whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy.” Allow it to be. Choose it to be. Why? So I can be fully developed, lacking in nothing. That must mean God really wants something more for me. Heck, I can’t even love myself that good to be “lacking in nothing”. But, God sure does love me that much!
Obviously for James to be one of my favorite books and to have delivered such a slicing message so early on, I know it gets better! This time, I’m going about this study slowly, hanging on to a few messages, word(s), or phrases and soaking in it. I just wanted to share where this first chapter of James has taken me over that past few days.
First, to share a funny (to me) insight as to why I titled this post He Hears, Do I? I’ll share how last week a friend was encouraged to ask God to wake her up early one morning, ready to have quiet time. The next morning she awoke at 6:59 a.m. refreshed, rested, and ready to spend sweet time with her LORD. So I thought last night, you know, I could pray the same thing and just see where it gets me. So, at 5:40 a.m. I awoke for a quick trip to the bathroom and I pondered, “LORD, is this our time?” I was thoroughly convinced it wasn’t! Then at 6:45 a.m., like every morning, my daily alarm clock went off on my cell phone. Just like every morning, I silenced it to snooze and went back to sleeping for the next 4 minutes and 58 seconds. Again, the phone sounded the alarm and I realized I was ignoring both the alarm and the answer to my previous night’s prayer. So as I went to disable the deedle-deedle-dee chime, a strange occurrence took place. It was as if my hand and the phone were repelling magnetic forces! As I reached, the phone seemed to slide off the night stand to the floor and landed somewhere beneath my bed. It was still chiming, and in the darkened room, I could see the lights of the phone illuminating my bedskirt and the floor around it. I reached, grasped, felt around–nothing! Okay fine! I’ll get out of bed! I squatted down to reach once again–nothing! So belly to floor I went, lifting up the bedskirt, I could finally see where the phone came to a halt. Way, way, way under the bed. At this point, I think I heard my husband snickering.
Finally, I retrieved my phone and made my mind up that it was time to get up for good. Disabling the alarm until the next day, I sat on the edge of my bed wondering what do I do first. Brush my teeth? Get dressed? Make coffee? Make Vivi’s bottle? Pray first? Read first? And then…plop! I was back on my pillow, exhausted from the hunt for my phone, all the while thinking, “He must really, really want to talk to me this morning.” And then, as I laid there inching my legs dangerously close to being under the covers again, I shut my eyes thinking I’ll start my prayer time off in the bed, then move to downstairs with my bible and coffee. And, He spoke! Repeatedly. A cyclical phrase over and over. Monotonously toned. I can honestly say I had NO appreciation for whatever variety of boring bird and said bird’s song he used to chirp my wake-up call just outside my window. But what a reward for that little bird to be used of God, I guess! He was just up singing his praises like the rest of Creation was made to do!
I’m up! I’m up, I’m up, I’m up! You heard me, now I hear you.
Now onto my review of James chapter 1 and what I’m hanging onto for today. In James 1:22, I am mindful after this morning’s events that I am to obey, not just listen.
Listen and obey.
Listen and OBEY.
Listen and OBEY.
Listen and OBEY!
James further encourages us to seek out ways to obey as a method to improve ourselves. My standard belief in obedience has been that there were just some rules to follow, and confining as rules can be, they just had to be followed. But no, that’s only listening and it’s a bad understanding on why laws and rules are in place. (I’m learning at a more advanced speed now that I’m a parent!)
True obedience, or active obedience, that’s within God’s perfect law gives much freedom by doing what is obedient. Hence, it leads to self-improvement. For me, I take the verse in James 1:23-24 to heart in many areas of my life, namely and most hurtful at times, my weight and health. I “fool myself … looking in the mirror (seeing the flaws and shortcomings) … and do nothing to improve my appearance … walking away … forgetting what I look like.” I can see clearly the areas that need improving and I can listen to myself moan all day long about the burden of the cumulation of disobedience or lack of self-improvement. But only noticing and listening does nothing for me. Verse 25 points out that in order to see change, to be obedient, to take charge for self-improvement, I must “keep looking steadily into God’s perfect law … the law that sets me free … do what it says not forgetting what I’ve seen and heard and God will bless my works.”
We are fooled into believing that disobedience and non-compliance within God’s law affords us personal freedom. However, by not following God’s perfect law, aren’t we then enslaved to our own laws, where true freedom and life is choked out, leading to moral, spiritual, emotional, and physical decay, sin, and death?
I’m challenging myself to take a hard look at my daily choices–every choice–and question myself:
- Am I listening AND obeying?
- Am I looking steadily into God’s truth for the freedom it will offer rather than giving into temptation?
- Lastly, am I choosing to have an attitude of joy when facing those temptations and trials?
All of this reflection has me singing a childhood song … He’s still working on me, to make me what I ought to be … How loving and patient he must be, ’cause he’s still working on me!
Gotcha Day 2008; Our First, Our Finalization!
16 Dec 2008 18 Comments
in Adoption, Family, Prose and Inspiration, Vivi Cakes! Tags: Adoption
Today, December 15, 2008 was our adoption finalization day. It was our first day to celebrate the legal recognition that Vivian has received the name we’ve given her, Vivian Elizabeth, having a much nicer ring to it than “Baby Girl Z-T”, and that we indeed desire deeply to: love, nurture, protect, and provide for her as her parents on a second-to-second, minute-by-minute, hour-by-hour, day-by-day, year-by-year, tantrum-by-tantrum, giggle-by-giggle, memory-by-memory basis for always, in ALL ways, forever and ever. (For a peak into our courtroom experience and the moment the judge signed-off on the petition, see our video below.)
We are so thankful for our close family and friends that have made this journey so unforgettable and so blessed. We feel the love and favor of being a child of God through this gift we have received in our daughter, Vivian. At this time of celebrating the most joyous gift mankind has received, our Savior and Messiah, Christ Jesus, we reflect on the scripture in 1 John 3:1
Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called the children of God! And that is what we are!
1 John 3:1 (NKJV/NIV)
From us to you, Merry Christmas!
Enjoy this video that Eric so lovingly put together in honor of our daughter, Vivian! It’s our gift to you!
The Tiny Lime Green Jacket
25 Oct 2008 3 Comments
in Prose and Inspiration, Vivi Cakes!
The Tiny Lime Green Jacket
The tiny lime green jacket I just hung on the stair post took me by surprise.
For the moment I placed it there, my reality hit me. Swoosh!
Really? This tiny lime green jacket has a place in our home?
Items this eensy-weensy were but a dream away a few months before.
Now, our house is brimming with toys that make noise all scattered on the floor.
And in one closet, you’ll see jackets, dresses, overalls, and all the rest — shrunk to the perfect teeny size.
After our stroll in the chilly air, I took the sleeping babe and snuck one arm out of the jacket, then the other.
Laying her down, kissing that tiny forehead and “shhh, keep sleeping” said I, her mother.
Then turning about with a to-do list in mind and not a moment to waste…
The tiny lime green jacket I just hung on the stair post took me by surprise!
It Was Here We Found Hope
24 Oct 2008 Leave a Comment
in Adoption, Prose and Inspiration Tags: Adoption, Infertility
In the Summer of 2007, Eric and I went out seeking answers on how to grow our family through adoption. We met two representatives from a Christian-based adoption consulting group in a small town about 45-minutes from here in Canton, GA. We listened as they talked about the clients they had helped grow their families since the start-up of their company. We even watched a digital profile presentation of an adoptive couple they were working to match.
Through tears, I explained the struggles I’d had with infertility and how it ached me to let go the thought of not bearing children of mine and Eric’s own biology. (I dreamed of children with his eyelashes and eye color!) It certainly wasn’t the first time they had heard a similar story from someone they had helped, but they made me feel like it was their first time. They gave us a folder to look over and I remember it contained scripture that pointed towards adoption and how God uses it to fulfill the desires of the barren. I knew I had always wanted to adopt, but it just seemed that in my mind, it would come as a natural step after producing children of my own. Why I had those fleshly expectations, I don’t know.
When we left, I was slightly more motivated than I was before, but still not there. It wasn’t until a few days later that I mustered the guts to explore their website and look into available adoption situations. We were told that adoptive needs come up quite frequently and that if we were interested in any situation they had, to just speak up and act quickly. So, there on the website I indeed found where babies were days or weeks or months away from birth and they needed moms and dads. It was also on their site that I saw many congratulatory posts about couples that had been helped by this organization to successfully match and become parents. Some of their clients’ process only took 2 to 3 months from start to finish!
That’s where it hit me! First, how awesome is it that most of the stories I had heard about adoption were being debunked by the speed and efficiency in which this organization could work to match a couple. And two, I began dreaming of our own congratulatory post to be on that site, too!
So even though we didn’t slide our “yes” across the table to engage in the adoption process until nearly a year later, we were so thrilled that we would be working alongside Malcolm and Amy Young and their team at Christian Adoption Consultants (CAC) and Hope for Adoption. And for whatever reason, when we finally said yes, things really started to gain momentum and we covered a lot of ground very fast!
Yet still as God often does, he had a different plan. While we still made incredible use of this organization as consultants, our adoption story took off in a different direction: an independent match. God really used CAC’s team to guide us, pray and minister to us over long phone conversations, and be excited for us in the turn of events. And here we are, with a beautiful 2-month old girl, sopping up every second of this journey as her chosen parents — and we still made it to their site with a photo and congratulations!
I highly recommend you explore their website and read about the soon-to-be-born babies they are working fast to match families to. And here, I think you’ll understand a little better just how great of a need adoption is in this country and globally. If you are thinking of adoption, please let Eric and I know how we can pray for you. And PLEASE, no matter where you live, Malcolm and Amy’s team can assist families from anywhere in the United States and they are a name I trust and recommend!
As for me, I’m gonna keep on dreaming!
It Was Just Last Night
01 Jul 2008 4 Comments
in Adoption, Family, Just life!, Prose and Inspiration
It was just last night that I held you before my arms even could.
Two hands touched, hers guiding mine to where you moved about in your own sea of safety and contentment.
I watched this man’s eyes dance as he watched me grow in excitement feeling you turn beneath my hand; that man you’ll soon call Daddy.
•••••••••
It was just last night that before we closed our eyes to rest, you were all we could think about, and so we prayed.
Thoughts of you entering this world, this family–it’s a sweet song that repeats over and over in my heart.
The thought of your tiny hands, sweet smell, and the ways you’ll bring so much joy to us soothes me to sleep and there, we meet in my dreams.
•••••••••
It was just last night that we found the perfect crib for you to sleep in, the perfect dresser to neatly tuck away your tiny clothes, and the rocker that we’ll spend countless hours in.
So many people can’t wait to meet you. You’ve got Nana’s, Nonna’s, Poppy’s and Papa’s hearts just swooning and bursting to embrace you. The same is true for so many more!
There is a purpose and a plan for you, Little One. Your Creator formed you with love, unfathomable complexity, and all for a unique reason. We just can’t believe we get to be a part of this story.
•••••••••
It was just last night that I held you before my arms even could.
Written to my Little One,
Love Julie
(but I’ll soon be known as Mommy)


