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It Was Just Last Night

It was just last night that I held you before my arms even could.

Two hands touched, hers guiding mine to where you moved about in your own sea of safety and contentment.

I watched this man’s eyes dance as he watched me grow in excitement feeling you turn beneath my hand; that man you’ll soon call Daddy.

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It was just last night that before we closed our eyes to rest, you were all we could think about, and so we prayed.

Thoughts of you entering this world, this family–it’s a sweet song that repeats over and over in my heart.

The thought of your tiny hands, sweet smell, and the ways you’ll bring so much joy to us soothes me to sleep and there, we meet in my dreams.

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It was just last night that we found the perfect crib for you to sleep in, the perfect dresser to neatly tuck away your tiny clothes, and the rocker that we’ll spend countless hours in.

So many people can’t wait to meet you. You’ve got Nana’s, Nonna’s, Poppy’s and Papa’s hearts just swooning and bursting to embrace you. The same is true for so many more!

There is a purpose and a plan for you, Little One. Your Creator formed you with love, unfathomable complexity, and all for a unique reason. We just can’t believe we get to be a part of this story.

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It was just last night that I held you before my arms even could.

Written to my Little One,

Love Julie

(but I’ll soon be known as Mommy)

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Our Journey as God Would Have It

Our journey as God would have it…is amazing. Words elude me as to how I should begin telling of this unfolding story. It’s one that I’ll play over and over in my mind until my dying day. Every word, every detail, every sweet and beautiful note is a melody that is now my song; I’ve been dreaming of how it’s tune would go for so long now. I had no idea it would be like this…

First, let me start off with how all renown goes to God alone. That’s a good start to any story, isn’t it?

Secondly, let me say this: E and I are thrilled to say that we are soon to be adoptive parents (mommy and daddy!) to a precious baby that is due in less than 8 weeks! Yes, yes, yes. I actually said 8 weeks (or less)!

Last Tuesday–just a week ago–we received a phone call telling us of an expectant mother that was due in 8 weeks and she had lovingly (and with great concern and emotion, I’m sure of) made the decision to place the baby for adoption. After a few more conversations, by Wednesday night, we had all happily and excitedly arrived to the decision to meet Friday evening for dinner at a family Italian restaurant just down the street from us.

On Thursday, we began calling everyone asking for prayer and had also asked for any available friends to come and assist us with putting together a profile (rifling through our pictures). By 7PM that night, dinner was brought in by Randy & Darci, then Travis, Ashley, Kim, E, and myself started sorting through a box of pictures and iphoto files. By 9PM, my talented and extremely generous sister-in-law, Jessica, had arrived after an emergency call I made pleading for her expertise. Little did I know that she would just haul my 13 month-old nephew and all her scrapbooking materials all the way up here from Griffin in a moment’s notice. She worked tirelessly, creatively, and fully inspired until 4:30 Friday morning. It was incredible! She was incredible! The album/profile is, well, incredible! Also, the 3AM ice cream fix really helped us push through that last hour or so.

By Friday evening, just moments before we were to meet the expectant mother and her family, E and I held each other and prayed. There was so much peace. We sat and laughed and talked the few minutes we had before they arrived. We honestly weren’t overworked with frazzled nerves, yet we were cutting up and having a good time just being us. We honestly hadn’t experienced one thing that would cause us to worry. It was clear that we were where we were supposed to be.

The dinner went really well. The conversations were fun, enlightening, and engaging. It was just so familiar to us. We compared tattoo and piercing stories. (Wouldn’t it be like God to use our uniqueness and pure personalities to make us all feel non-judged and understood?) After making sure that the expectant mom had seen our album, had her own album to take home, and had polished off almost all the strawberry cheesecake, we said our goodbyes for that evening.

Ten minutes later, after saying we had thought things went really well and had given thanks to God, the phone rings! It’s her. Somewhere on her drive home, she was calling us saying thanks for a great time, a really good meal, and the opportunity to have met us. And after a few more very nice and generous words, she said, “I know you’re the ones, I know you are. I choose you! Will you be the mother and father to this baby?”

Words can’t describe what hearing those words spoken to us felt like. Indescribable. Through joyful tears and muttered words of praise to God on our lips, we said “yes, yes, YES!” She said that our answer made her very happy and she couldn’t wait any longer to ask us.

God, help us not to forget how you like being in every single detail and you like it when we ask you to work out the things that we know we can’t control on our own. Like, we never wanted to know the gender of any biological or adopted babies until delivery. God heard and honored that one. We’re ALL going to be genuinely surprised! We wanted to be present and available for doctor appointments and the delivery, too. She has generously offered and invited us to be there in the midst of it all. What a miracle! Her family and friends would like to shower this baby with gifts and pass them along to us–what profound love they have!

Oh, I can just go on and on and on. There are some details that are just too precious and too mind-blowing. And, every time I retell this story, the same emotions come flooding back and wash over my soul.

We are still praying for many details and asking for provision and guidance as we all move forward. It’s very important to us the emotional, physical and spiritual well-being of this expectant mom from now until forever and ever. And for this sweet, blessed baby that soon we will bring into our home. Oh, how my heart just melts at the very vision of sweet toes and tiny hands and baby lashes to gaze at and admire each day God gives us.

I’m just lost in this big ‘ol ocean of grace right now. I’m just lost in it.

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This sums things up…

Proverbially speaking, we’ve had a hard time putting our finger on exactly where we are at in the soon-to-be-parents process.

  • I don’t have this little bun in the oven that is sending me into fits of nausea or frequent trips to the ladies room to tee-tee.
  • I’m not required to make regular obstetric check-ups and be measured, examined, and so on.
  • I don’t have this forecasted due date where the clock seems to tick away throughout the week eating up the time until little one is here. You know, the biological reminder that is telling you to paint the nursery, register for baby goodies, nest and organize.
  • I’m not devouring everything in sight and eating for two. Well, okay…maybe I’m sympathizing in that area a bit too much.

I can say I’ve definitely felt the missing link to the physical side of pregnancy, but I’m all too careful to recognize that though I’m not experiencing this, someone out there–the birthmom to our son or daughter–is going through this.

Our side of experiences is mysterious, wonderful, painful, expectant, joyful, and unknown–much like the pregnant couple–only different. Above anything, it’s God-given, and for that, I’m humbled to be chosen for this special experience and gift he has for us.

Our consultants, Christian Adoption Consultants, has a staff member, Tracie Loux, that has written about this time during the adoption process and has penned so well the feelings and encouragement that I needed to read. I thought you might enjoy reading it, too. It may give insight to those of you that are supporting us or someone else in the process. Fittingly, she’s titled this time in the process: The Waiting Room.

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Two thoughts when I awoke this morning:

My hope is in the Lord!

and…

I can’t wait to smell my baby!

Just as you’ll never understand the mystery of life forming in a pregnant woman; so you’ll never understand the mystery at work in all that God does. Ecclesiastes 11:5

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A lecture I must hear!

I saw Randy Pausch back in October on Oprah and saved the episode because I never want to forget about his arresting and appropriate words. Do yourself a favor and tune into ABC this Wednesday, April 9 to hear an unforgettable message about authentically living life. Here’s a preview . . .

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A good one to come back with . . .

Well, after taking a brief rest from blogging, I’m back with a very inspirational YouTube video to share.

I’m definitely a supporter of musicians, for sure a cheerleader of father and son relationships that anyone can look up to, and beyond a big fan of any great stories coming out of my home state of Kentucky. My good friend Carrie just passed this along. I thought there couldn’t be a better story to share, than that of Louisville famed Patrick Hughes!

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Oh, Allergy Season! Bringeth Thy Wrath So Soon?

Hi Readers,

I must do this post in verse. Enjoy!

Allergy S(n)eason

You cause my nose to sniffle, down my throat it goes a trickle

My eyes are red, my sniffer’s raw, and oh — how my ears they tickle!

 

I’m stocking up on eye-drops before my orbs dry out and pop

Out of bed, neti pot in hand — you guessed it, yep, my sinuses are clogged!

 

You soil my windows and cars with your mustard-hued, pollen dust.

Sure the flowers are in bloom and the leaves are back, but pass the Kleenex - Achoo! - you must!

 

Headache, headache go away! I have got to function like normal.

This sneezin’ and weezin’ is getting quite old and my demeanor is reachin’ non-informal!

 

You poked the bear, you better run! I’ll shoot you with my nasal spray!

Out of my path, I’ve had all your wrath, that one girl can take in a day.

 

(by Julie Kent: the suffering, sneezy, snotty one)

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Who is my office angel?

Another thing I LOVE — wind chimes! Their melody is so sweet and soothing. Their notes take me to places in my imagination that are relaxing and welcoming: an inviting spa, a crisp Spring morning, a cool Fall breeze, or my parent’s front porch. When I’m in a store and I come across a selection of wind chimes, I play them all. Every. Single. One. Seriously, just ask Eric!

Wind chimes yield evidence of something obscure, a thing I cannot see — the wind.

The chimes sway and clang at the nudge of the wind’s gentle swirls.

When touched, their refrain colors the air around it, high and low notes playing randomly, yet perfectly.

Ting, ting go the silvery bars as they bounce off one another.

Their lush tones full and bright.

Ringing, ringing, ringing.

 

When I think about it, much like the wind, I can only see and feel the evidence of the Holy Spirit’s works, but not the spirit itself: the calm, the discernment, the nudging and prodding, the gentle love that guides, the smiling heart, the tenderness of a loved one’s touch.

Introducing, my office angel . . . So, it’s a Monday and I’m tapping away at my keyboard working on receipts, emails, payments and such, and I look over to my right. Hung on my dry eraser just above a photo frame on my desk is a small wind chime. Some angel friend of mine has left me this sweet gift. Dangling from the clapper is a note that reads “Have an awesome day!” I guess I had talked about them back at Christmas time because I was giving my niece some inexpensive gift ideas to give to her dad, my brother, since they were asking. My two odd items were wind chimes and a kaleidoscope. I guess someone else knows my quirky “favorite things” and they generously enlivened my day with my new office wind chime.

Thank you anonymous office angel!

My office windchime. Given anonymously and sweetly!

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